Trent Diesel Responds to His Arrest
A day after I posted the story about Trent Diesel’s arrest, a friend in common contacted me, saying that things weren’t quite so black-and-white and urged me to get Trent’s side of the story. I was reluctant at first, but since it would be hard to make Trent look any worse, I reached out to him via email and asked him if there was anything he wanted to add. Given the damaging nature of the report that I posted, I felt as if it was only fair to give Trent some space to explain what had happened.
I was surprised at how eager he was to respond: His side of this story is raw, candid … and honest. While I don’t expect everyone who reads Trent’s side of the story to necessarily sympathize with him, I do think it’s worth a read.
Read Trent’s response after the jump ..
I am not much of a writer so I hope too much doesn’t get lost in my recount of what happened and what lead up to it.
So as the story said, I did retire from the industry about a year ago. After I did I was all right for a while but I began to feel the void that I once filled with [working in the adult industry]. I started hooking up a lot, and doing drugs, and getting lost in bad thoughts about, among other things, my life, my family and the relationship that I was in. I tried to bury these feelings by staying high and with meaningless sex.I began posting adds on craigslist for NSA hookups as it was easy to find willing partners. The day that everything happened was no exception: I had been off work for four days and had played with a few guys and pretty much had been high and had not slept in as long when I decided I was going to post an add looking for a woman.As usual I got a few spam responses. The few that said they were real that I knew nothing would come of so I treated them as comic relief and cracked stupid jokes in response to their questions and comments.Then I get an email that says, “I am experienced at home and horny” (or something to that extent.) After a while this person says she is 15. I thought this is hilarious, so I continue this conversation saying how if either of us is a cop, the other is in so much trouble. The way the email was written, I know the person on the other end is certainly not who they said they are. No abbreviations, no text speak … all carefully formed sentences . So I think its someone with some weird fantasy or someone playing a joke. So … I continue the conversation.Eventually it turns into, “let’s meet”. I had no intention of doing so: I think: “OK, I’ll put an end to this and tell her to call me.” To my surprise I get a call from what sounds like a middle-aged woman asking if I want to meet, etc, etc so at this point I think, “Wow this is some chick with a weird fantasy.” OK I’ll play along. I go to meet her and I am arrested.I have no idea what is happening. I’m confused and high. They asked me all these weird questions … about what I do, why I was there, what I thought of the person I was talking to. If I saw anyone I thought was her. Through attempting to explain what was happening and basically stupidly telling them my life story, they get me to say exactly what they need and I go to jail. Later, reading the police report, my answers are out of order and incomplete.I tell my family, who was supportive. My name is all over the news. I lose most of my friends. My relationship is over. Now I am taking a plea deal because, according to my lawyer, I screwed myself by talking to the police. I’m also told if I try to fight it it will be all over the news more and I simply do not want to damage my family any further.Since that day I have cleaned up my act. I have been clean and sober ever since and am accepting that the way I was living led me to where I am. I am very grateful to my family and my true friends who know and love me and have helped me through this.I guess at this point I’m not sure what else to say. I am truly grateful for this opportunity to tell my side of things. The news reports left so much out. Simply listing all the charges and the names was awful as some did so much less then others.
Thank you so much for hearing me out.
— Trent Diesel